Post 2 - When towers crumble its best to land with a smile

This particular blog comes from recent personal experience. I wish to talk about our belief structures in the context of the Tower image. I recently began delving into many materials that before I would have deemed total bullshit including, channellings, UFO futurists, Conspiracies, and Psychic predictions about the upcoming 2012 and or consciousness shifts. I got pretty involved in all of this stuff, it began clouding the true journey inward. I had in effect been delving deeply into the outward world that reflected what I wanted in the 2012. But all of this distraction completely removed the spiritual responsibility from my self. I was allowing everyone else to tell me how the world was going be, how my consciousness was going to shift from all these outside factors. And at the height of all this I had gotten pretty excited about all of it, it was an easy ride, sit back and let the aliens take care of things.

This perspective all changed when I read an interview with James from the Wingmakers the ideas presented in this piece literally shook my entire Tower I have been designing and living in over the last decade. It challenged everything I believed in down to the tiniest beliefs. I still don't know where I stand on anything now that my tower lays crumbled at my feet and I lay beside it staring out at the stars. But it has given the direction to truly make the dedicated effort to seeking only inwardly while still enjoying the experience of life.

This I believe could truly be the meaning of life, at least the meaning for me. I am making the "effort" to stop seeking gurus, yogis, spiritual books, channelers, psychics, for anything other than personal enjoyment. That all my spiritual growth and understanding can only come from the teacher that is within, something that doesn't need be translated from one set of lips to another's ears. It is my story told to me as I ask for it. It is the beauty I have hidden away until asked for. I cannot ask myself when I am screaming at the world for answers.

As a side note, as intellectually, spiritually, and emotionally that I feel jostled or confused I have enjoyed a greater amount of awareness of support of nature in my life. Leading to more smiles and more enjoyment of this crazy mad life. So I say, be prepared for your world to shatter and for new ones to appear. Be ready with gratitude and a smile.